Maybe..

It is a party not a date !
so many friends.
the 1st ppl you talk is not me !
i should happy ? Ya. Maybe..
Got alots of things inside my heart,
But i cant say out.


the 1st time , i cry 2 times in 1 day !
have both of you try it before ?
The feel is SUCKS !
sound become "sexy" and eye swell like hell..
the 1st ppl care about it is my work partner.
they are the maymar person.
but all kind and care about me.
they ask me dont cry.
ya. im trying =)
i wish i can.
but when i flashback.
I still CANT control it ! FCUK !
Why all the men like that suckssssssss d ?
Fucker ! Noob shit.
My hand pain.
but my heart more pain then my hand.
it's my mental got problem ?
Maybe..
It's too many maybe today ?
Maybe...
maybe i should not appear at here.
maybe i should not appear in this world.
I wish i can die if i need to continue my life with the style like this !
I dont want live !
Almost crazy 2 times today.
cant control it.
after cry and crazy need to smile again.
sometimes, im forget how to smile =)
it's a true smile or a fake ?
you can answer me ?
who can answer me ?
pls answer me before i get crazy. can ?
my tear keep running inside my eye.
I try to dont it out.
I WANT TO DIE AND DRUNK!
May i do soo ?



BTW , WIsh you happy birthday =)